sunsunsunsun. hi :]

okay,
this weekend im so sad.
pms-ing?
probably :)
i admit it.
i dont get mad like allll the other girls.
i just get depressed. which could be worse.

well well welllll. i told the sun what "the sun" meant. officially. for rizzle.
he still didnt quite get it so he texted me and is all like, "tell me the joke!"
and i was like, "uhhkay, here it is.."
and he was just like "ya."
and i was thinking ooohhkay? thats all you can say?
i even texted him and was like, "what else is up?"
he didnt text back.
but we must remember, my friends, that he's never been much for texting.
look back on this summer.....he almost never texted me. and im cool with that now.
im going to start living my life with a little less worry. living it to be happy. living it for the simple things and the things that can give my heart that light, floating feeling.

because i know that boyy still likes this girl.
feelings like we had don't fade that fast.
it wasn't an over obsessive, have to see you all the time, i love you fights every night, jr. high, text me all the time, think you love them kind of thing.
it was a real relationship. although he also did make me cry a few times, he had every intention to make me happy. and i won't say love this time because it sounds too cliche'. but he liked me alott.
he never meant to hurt me, which means he's not in the wrong.
i am.

jeesh, i have to go.
my dad is freaking yelling at me and internet explorer keeps closing.
shitt. :)
i hate this weekend with a passion.
so farr.