you keep me hanging on...so contagiously.

today good things happened.
first day in two days i talked to teebee!
:)
whooooo i was happy.
my day really sucked up until then.
why, you ask?
here:
even though brittany told me what brianna had said, i decided to see for myself if it was true.
i asked her after lunch today while we were walking out....
and she was like...."ohh, ill tell you later."
i was like, "its nothing. i know it."
she threw her head back and laughed.
"yeahh." she said.
i was PISSED.
and get THIS.
tanner was right behind us, maybe even trying to get up to me to say hi, and i paid no attention. thats how mad i was. i just wanted to get away from brianna.
i slammed the door open.
nothing like i've done before. it made this huge "BANG!" noise. and then i just stormed off.

i cannot believe she would do that to me. i spent my entire summer believing that she was my best friend. and now that she's going through hard times of her own, its like she thinks its funny to make everyone else sad, too.
NO OFFENSE, but she's hanging out with the freaking gothic people! pearl martinez!?
what the heck?
where's the brianna that i knew?
*deep breath*

anyway....so i partly told tanner about this nickname we've given him. he just smiled.
he's adorable. i can't describe the feelings i get when he simply smiles. thats all he has to do and he's got me beaming, too.
and just talking to him made my day 10% better.
dude, i adore him. :]
then, in the hallway, he whipped me with his ID. hahah, i turned back because i had no idea what hit me, and i saw him and i was all like, "Heyy!"
ohh man. i swear, the simple things like this make all of those bad things disappear.
and when i heard that he was texting his mom and typing on the keyboard (in keyboarding, obviously) today, just because he wanted to go home (for no specific reason), that even made me smile.


obsession?
maybe a wee bit :)
adoration?
more than anything.