3 Unavoidable Questions

Here I sit, 11:28 on a Wednesday night, munching away on Texas toast, sipping ice-cold milk from a Scotch glass and I am faced with a number of questions I've found to have become quite unavoidable. 1. Why, oh why can I not seem to grab ahold of a perfectly decent guy? After all, I like to think of myself as a perfectly decent girl. I'm attractive. I've got nice hair and pleasant facial features and a desirable figure. I do exceptionally well in school, I'm social, I'm sweet...and you can bet your bottom dollar I'm different than any other girl you've ever known! Yet here I am. A single gal, eating her feelings - smothered in butter - and then sending them away for all of cyberspace to read about. Which leads me to haunting question number two.... 2. What kind of man allows a perfectly decent girl like myself only TWO evenings worth of average textual conversation before dropping her off once again and saying "sayonara"? I might be okay with it if it had been two weeks worth of texts before he decided I wasn't for him...I might even be a little more liberal than THAT and say one week would cut it. But two evenings? That's not even enough time to find out that my favorite color is jade, that I have an unhealthy obsession with orange juice, or that Audrey Hepburn is my favorite actress. I freely give the benefit of the doubt, so I've been trying to convince myself that maybe its just a bit of a Capricorn-Capricorn ego clash (and yes, I already know the guy's sign in the zodiac. That's the one stalkerish liberty I allow myself). And I mean ego clash in the sense that I am patiently (stubbornly) awaiting a text from HIM, as I am a firm believer in chivalry, while he stubbornly waits for me to be the first to contact him. Or maybe I just over analyze everything. Yes, that must be it. And number 3. What if I am actually incapable of being totally alone? In recent months, I've noticed the amount of stress that being guyless causes me. When one little flirty fling ends, I'm out searching for a new boo within a weeks time....if I don't already have a backup. Oh, why don't I just face it - I'm stuck in a never ending chain if semi decent guys.... Or maybe that isn't the case at all. Maybe, all I need to do to break this chain is get away for a while, do some deep breathing and find peace within myself....instead of in some guy. Maybe, in a moment of complete and utter inner peace, I'll turn a corner and - BOOM - there he'll be. Mr. PERFECTLY Decent, standing right in front of me.