As written on my iPhone notepad on last weekend's RV adventure.
I woke up this morning with the grand realization that I am a woman. I am no longer a little girl who looks up to the stars with impossible hopes or dreams of unicorns under lustrous rainbows.
My plans are realistic now because of my awareness that nothing is an impossibility. The world is at my fingertips because I am liberated.
Liberated from nothing less than chains whose cold, steel constraints had me bolted to the floor by a boy whose heart I thought was mine.
I am a woman. A woman requires a strong and able man. A woman no longer has room in her life for a whiny, weepy child centered on his gloom and doom.
I wish well the gentleman who captured my girlish heart two short years ago, but will no longer wait for his return - which may never occur.
And I'm finally fine with that.
For I am now a free spirited woman; rolling down a desert highway with the wind whipping my curls across my sun-kissed cheeks. I am free to climb the highest mountain I can spot, and do it with the God-given strength and grace of a woman. I am free to sing my own song and create my own melody instead of asking for it to be given to me by someone who truly doesn't know me from Adam.
I am free to flirt with whomever i so choose and can no longer be scolded or punished for it. Flirting was all I ever did anyway. I would have sooner sold my soul than cheat on that boy. But alas, I am young and I am not married. When I finally meet a man for whom I shall gladly forsake all others, I'll promise him forever at the altar.
Not to belabor the topic but the truth of the matter is, I've never met a man with aspirations AND determination as lofty and consistent as my own. And until the day I meet him, I will not settle down.
For I am now a free spirited woman, conducting my own life. For that, I don't need any selfish boy's help.
In the current phase of my life, THIS is the only freedom I need.
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