Stupid Girl

Nothing is free.

I thought I'd found the top purchase for the greatest bargain; I never thought that the immense pleasure, intrigue, happiness you brought me would cost so much sweet time, a thousand smiles, the usual flutter of joy in my heart, my giddy laugh, my sunshine-summertime outlook on life....and now I'm spent. I'm all used up.
How could I not have known? How could I have let it all go on a ridiculous baby boy with a background of heartbreaking like you? Why after all I've been through did I allow the same thing to crush me under it's thumb again? How is it that my head just allows my heart to overpower it? I know better.
And now I'm left with this colossal mess to clean up, these debts to pay off, this scar to mend.

I'm not letting anyone unworthy of my trust, my heart, my life, my joy, my love EVER to interfere again.
I TOLD you I couldn't do this, but you kept on convincing me you would be there. You aren't anymore.
You've moved on to the next bitch in your alphabet haven't you?
I'M GLAD TO FINALLY SEE HOW MUCH I REALLY MEAN TO YOU, AND HOW MUCH YOU REALLY LOVE ME.
Thank you for raping away my trust.
For weasling your way in.
I hate you for this.