When It's Over.

I know it was just two days ago that I stayed up till 12:00 writing the story of how I'd liked Tanner for a year, and that it was never going to end,

I know that it was just last weekend that I was SO excited that he'd said he still likes me,

and I know just yesterday I basically had my mind set on him...but today, so many things changed my mind. I know I've said this many times before, but this time I'm sure.

When I got to school, he gave me a glance. That's it. Is that really what the girl you "like" deserves?

When Whitney got to school, he put his arm around her and sat down on the ground with her, talking to her until the bell rang at 8:30. Does Whitney, the girl who earned Tanner fair and square, deserve to be broken up with so he can attempt a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with me for the third time, most likely just so it winds up in a breakup all over again?

And what ever made me think that if he was flirting with me during his thing with Whitney that he never did it with me or wouldn't have in the future?

Why did I even consider going back out with him again after all of the pain he caused me over happiness?

Does a girl like me, with all the qualities that a boy could even dream of, deserve to be second best? Or to be treated like my feelings and emotions don't matter at all?

I don't think so.

And I don't think boys matter too much anymore. For a while at least.(:

I'M STILL UPSET THAT MY DAD SHAVED OFF HIS MUSTACHE.

I cried about it for a while. He's had that thing since BEFORE I WAS BORN, BEFORE MY MOM.

I guess it's alright, it's just....not him. :(

And, I'm pretty sure I failed my Sinfonia audition. BIG time. And I cried about that, too. But my mom said if I get private lessons this summer, re-record the audition, and have my private teacher send Ms. Harvey a letter of recommendation, she'll probably let me in. :D

AND, now I'm up to one hour nonstop, running! So I've started going to bed alotalot earlier and taking vitamins so I'm super energetic during the day!

Eeeek!(:

So, night night.