Every Morning.

That's what i like about you#4: Talking to you is like talking to one of my best friends. Yeah, it may be a little awkward at first, but once we've got a conversation going, it's hard to stop it!

Every morning, lately, I've been waking up into a living fairy tale.

I open my eyes, see the sun making little streaks of light run across my room, stretch, and then remember how perfect everything is.

I feel like getting up and singing like they do in those old Disney movies. You know, one morning, I heard a Rascal Flatts song I like come on the radio, and I just shot up out of bed to dance.

It's sort of like waking up into the life of a different person. Everything about my outlook on life has changed and now it all feels complete, back to the way it used to be.

It's an amazing feeling....

A feeling that everyone should be able to have a lot in their lives.

It's pure happiness. The highest level.

There's no comparison to all the love and joy I have in my life right now.

But I still remember how hard things were a few months ago. Yet, I think it all happened as a lesson from the creator himself because, little did I know, I had a lot to learn.

During those times, I learned all about trust in God and putting him in control. I was always thinking about what I wanted and what I needed to do to get Tanner back and whatever. But I eventually discovered that if I just sat back and let Jesus take the wheel, trusted in him, and prayed about it every night, I might just get what I wanted.

I also learned about patience, which I have very little of. Waiting around does not come easy for this girl, so I have to think of ways to occupy myself during all my boredom and impatience. Which is something else that I learned. "When the going gets tough, the tough get going."

If you get busy and take your mind off whatever is bringing you down, you'll forget about it for a while and possibly even get over the whole ordeal.

But getting over Tanner was not something I could do. Honestly, I tried really really hard during the last two months of summer to do that. Even though I kept telling myself and other people about how happy I was that I wasn't going out with him, did you ever notice that when someone brought him up, I always wanted to talk? That is definitely not my definition of getting over someone.

So, basically I played the patience game. I sat and waited and waited and waited until finally, things started to change. And here we are. Right here in this moment. There's gossip going around my bunch of friends that he might ask me out soon, we're constantly flirting with each other when we pass in the hallway, and it's all falling back into place.

Now, I'm learning another lesson; living in the moment. I have a really good life, with or without Tanner, though I really can't picture myself without. I am so blessed to be living the life that I am, and what I really should be doing every day of my life, is waking up, taking a deep breath, and telling myself the same thing. I am so blessed, and today is going to be the new best day of my life.

And then I can dance to another Rascal Flatts song :]