do you feeeeeeeeeee-l?

i wrote all this fridayyyyyy



okay...


so i think he still likes me.


you know how back on the playground, some boy would always chase you around and kind of tease you...but it was allll because he really really liked you?


thats how i felt today.


at lunch, all of my friends and i were talking and then they decided to yell "hey, tanner, alaina loves you!"


okay, he didn't hear the alaina loves you part, so he was wondering why, when he turned around, i was laughing and blushing big time, and everyone else turned around embarrassed saying, "nevermind!"


so, at stampede we egged him and stole his hat which i wore. now thats two articles of his clothing that i have worn. haahah. my orange hairspray stuff messed his nice white hat up bigtime. so we just kind of walked around with it for a while and then, when i decided to finally give it back, [he didn't even realize that it'd been gone] i set it on his head and he stopped me before i could move another step and said, "what were ya'll yelling about at lunch."

i was like, "i have absolutely nothing to say to you." and i kept repeating myself.

so he spit his snow cone on me.

i was like, "that was rude."

he was like, "i know, right? now tell me what happened."

dude, he looked so hottttt. he was smiling big time and everryything. ohhmygosh.

i was like, "i told you, nothing! i promise!" sort of a lie, huh?

and he poured the snow cone on both me and brittany...so we raaaaaaannn.



a long while later, im just standing there, talking to brittany peacefully and i feel this iiiiceee coooold water dripping down the side of my face and shirt.

tanner.

:)

i turn around and yell, "jerkk!"

he laughs and brittany backs away.

"tell me what the secret is."

i smile, "tanner, i swear, there's no secret. my friends were just yelling stuff at you for the fun of it."

and then before he can say anything, brittany blurts out, "hey, guys, i know this is kinda personal...but why'd ya'll break up?"

he kind of just looks at me for a while and turns back to brittany and says, "ask her." pointing in my direction.

i open my mouth to say something to him, but his friends run over and start chatting it up with him...


he's still wondering what the secret is....because he knows there's something im not telling him. im not a good liar.
yesterday monday he yelled from across the lunchroom when our eyes met, "what is it?"
i laughed, flashed him a quick smile and turned back to brittany.

she was like, "he totally still likes you! why would he be so concerned about this if not?"
im starting to believe it myself.