ohh my gosh. you'll never believe this!!!!

okay...listen to this;
i grabbed myself a blue powerade and set off to my usual lunch table.
thats when i heard kyle, one of tanner's friends, calling me.
he was all like, "hey, lainey....tanner has something to ask you."
so, obviously i walk myself over there and see whats up.
kyle starts trying to explain what he called me over here for...in a wayyyy too distant way.
and then all of the sudden, tanner grabs my hand to get my attention.
and i, as if we never broke up, grab his back and squeeze it. i had no clue what triggered it...i just did it.
i was really surprised at myself. i gasped and let go.
"im so sorry...i didn't--" i started.
he smiles at me and grabs my hand back, squeezing it just like i did.
"its okay..." he says softly.
at this point, i was super shocked.
but nothing compared to what came next.
it was like i had this huge late response thing going on....
his lips moved and then i heard it. "will you go out with me."
i couldn't speak. i was trying, but nothing came out of my mouth. no sound, no words. nothing.

i sat up straight in bed, sobbing.
it was all a dream.

(100% true. see how out of control this has gotten?)